67 days - My Outlet

I feel like this is the only place I can share my wedding planning frustrations and exhaustions. I don't know if anyone is even reading these. But I need to write. I need to talk. I need to feel. I need to get it off me.

I am so so so so so so so tired of all this. I didn't think it would be anywhere near this stressful. I'm not feeling support from those I need it from. I am so burnt out. Beyond stressed. Physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. I am so done.

Everything is happening at the wrong time. I feel so much pressure to get the invites out ASAP.

I can't even get into the details. I just want to go to bed and forget it all.

Night never lasts long enough. I feel like I am constantly carrying these burdens around. I get no break.

I am on the verge of tears and throwing up about 70% of the time. I hate that this is my life. I hate that I'm hating this part of my life. The part that I've been looking forward to all my life. Guess what: REALITY CHECK! It's not all it's cracked up to be. It's hell.

Yes, today has truly felt hellish. There's no escape.

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I know that sometime in the future, I'll look back and read this and think, "What was the big deal?" I know this too shall pass. But in the thick of it, it's pretty nasty.

72 days - much to do

I need to find someone to embroider 19 aprons. Ha ha!

I need to find bridesmaid jewelry. And flower girl jewelry. And MY jewelry.

I need to figure out flowers.

Need to work on music for the reception.

Don't even get me started on music for the ceremony.

We have no bridal processional and no recessional.

Is Billy Joel's Lullaby too sad for a father-daughter dance?

Where are we staying on our wedding night?

I've given up a lot of dreams, a lot of wishes, and a lot of wants.

83 Days - with Pictures!

I'm back to wedding planning whether or not I want to be.

We (finally) got back quotes from caterers today. I had been waiting a L O N G time for this information. Fortunately, it was all good news. Yea!

We now have a plan for the Bridal Brunch, and it's official: we now have caterers for our reception. Double Yea!

In other news - I pulled a muscle in my shoulder/neck/upper back area today and am in a lot of pain. Hoping to return back to normal soon!!

Also, I've got 3 days left to do my taxes... Yikes.

And, the good news is that I rejoined a gym I used to belong to. I feel incredibly better when I'm working out. Trying hard not to stress eat, but it's been hard. My current weakness: CAKE!

Oh - and we got our engagement photos the other day! SO great!! Here are some:




Kissy kissy!

84 Days - Need a Break

The last thing I want to think about is wedding plans.